Shanti Rao

My sudden decision to go to the US for  three weeks on a holiday has brought to light a peculiar problem. I seem to be burdened with so many responsibilities that it almost seems a sacrilege to think of taking off all alone and leaving all the dependees  to fend for themselves.

A thought has sprung up unbidden in my mind. Am I going to be missed because I do a lot of work for my family ?  I am a cook, house keeper, shopper, door answerer, soother of hurt egos, Rock of Gibraltar in times of worry or during visits to the doctor, companion, avid listener etc. Are they going to miss me because I’m not around to do all of the above or are they going to miss me - the person? Are they going to miss me at all?

Is it right to put so many people to inconvenience  ( my family, the school) just to satisfy my wanderlust? A free holiday - of a real different kind is pretty hard to resist.  And besides, How can they miss me if I don’t go away? So let me banish all thoughts of guilt. If I am meant to go I will. Que Sera Sera. Whatever will be will be. The future’s not ours to see. Que Sera Sera.